真的很喜欢 正因为喜欢 所以为了对方考虑 就把自己的感情隐藏起来 这样做对吗?

我爱你是我自己的事,所以你没有必要知道我的存在。虽然却被赋予了很多色彩,可是每当我躲在一个角落看着你,甜甜的微笑,我以满足。

不要着急,最好的总会在不经意的时候出现

既然爱,为什么不说出口,有些东西失去了,就再也回不来了!

世界上最遥远的距离,不是生与死的距离,不是天各一方,而是我就站在你面前,你却不知道我爱你

2012/12/06

Bad Mood

今天…是我工作的第四天
发生了一件连我自己也不知道自己怎么了的事情
泪水就在那瞬间毫无停止地直流
想忍也忍不住

其实我的心早前几天已经揪着揪着了
眼泪也早已在眼眶里不听地打转
只是还没爆发而已

我那多疑的性格又来了
我就是这样
自己无时无刻会想太多
甚至偏激的想法都有过
想着想着…眼泪就蹦出

第四天的工作
不知道是否自己想太多
总觉得自己在那里好像是多余的
挺多只是个负责打杂的人罢了
又或者是
我在想 我在你们眼中好像是一粒毫不起眼的灰尘
我有努力在做啊
为什么你们都好像把我当作外来者一样
但无可否认 的确 我是一个外来者

和其他老师们,也就是我的同事
一天里面 说话不超过十次吧 我想
就算有超过十次 内容也只不过是关于工作或课堂的内容
很讨厌这样的感觉
真希望能和老师们融洽在一起
可能需要时间吧
加上我那该死的超级被动性格
真希望我能主动点

员工在老板的面前流泪
是一件非常丢脸的事吧
可是眼泪就是不听话啊
停止了又再哭
心中很多委屈吗
我也就是这样
就算心中有很多的委屈和不快
都会全部往心里埋藏,堆积
宁愿自己承受 也不愿告诉别人我心中的不满
到最后折磨了自己

但愿今晚大声地痛哭了以后
第二天就要重新开始了
紧要关头不放弃 绝望就会变成希望
加油!!潘慧颖!!
你是可以的!!

2012/11/12

想念

咳咳~
我大概有一大段的时间没更新我的部落格了
学校种种的考试
再来预试
接下来人生最重要的统考
忙不可开交
我承认是我自己懒惰更新啦
明明就有很多东西想写就是懒惰打字 :P

一个培育了我六年的中学
就在03/11/2012这一天我以毕业生的名誉离开了中华
真的好不舍得
尤其是今年的班上同学们
当初看着那些毕业的学长和学姐们
心里有很多问号出现
毕业罢了嘛 有什么好哭、好不舍得的
直到那一天
我亲自感同身受
才了解那种心中的不舍
毕业那天所发生的情景
我依然历历在目
毕业典礼后 大家还是团结合作到最后
一起回到班上
因为大家都不舍得踏出课室半步
扣人心弦的班歌又再一次从我们嘴里哼出
原本没有流泪的心情
就在旋律响起的时候 崩溃了
最后一次的向班主任敬礼
大家几乎都泪崩了
连流泪都那么的团结
这就是高三文信

趁大家还没哭成泪人时来一张大合照

take 2

T^T

看到心都纠结在一起了


高三文信
一个特别与众不同的班级
特别爱玩
可是成绩有时候会令人大跌眼镜
考试成绩也许不行
但可别小看我们的才艺哦
单单我们的团结就全胜了
也因为这样
冠军接而诞生!
我们得到了RM2,000的一日游资助
SUNGKAI HOTSPRING



起初一开始的不愿意
到最后的不舍
这是因为我们之间拥有太多美好的共同回忆
我们的感情之间就好像有一条线紧紧地联系着
我们曾经一起努力、一起奋斗
为的是想告诉其他人
我们就是这样的一班
那又怎样
我们有我们自己的风格
就算被人看低
我们也在所不惜
只要做好我们自己的原则和本份就够了

毕业后的第二天
我们又相聚在一块了
大家都迫不及待地等到这一天的到来
经过这四天的相聚
我们的凝聚力更强了
心中的不舍更加强烈
好想哪一天又可以约出来再次相聚

太多的第一次献给了高三文信
第一次上台表演
第一次因为一起闯祸一起进训育处
第一次熬夜至早上五点钟 O.o
还有很多的新体验
因为高三文信而尝试到了
谢谢你们

由于太多美好的回忆存在着
以致无时无刻做任何关于你们的事情时
都会想起你们
今天
毕旅回来的第4天
心中依然想念你们
没有你们的日子
真是糟透了
简直快闷死了

此刻
我想大声地说
我想你们啊!!
高三文信 
怀念 =(








2012/07/13

CHAMPION

Well
I found that I have been so long time didn't update my blog yet
so many tests that made me no time too update
here start my blogging...

until nowadays
I still couldn't forget that day
the memories of that day were so clearly until now
kept repeating in my mind just like the movie show
it was an awesome and unforgettable day for me and of course my classmates too

time flash backed until 11/7/2012
it was Wednesday and an important day for us
because it was the English inter-class choir competition's finals round!!!
we were very nervous~
to pay so much
today was finally should have the achievements
was bad or good??
no one would know it
at least we tried our best

times flew very fast
it was the time to have a compete
as we sacrificed our recess time to have a last practice
not just our class,the other class who took part did so
hahaha~

we took a seat in the hall
and waited for our turn
we were the 14th class to perform
every class's strength evenly matched
among the senior middle group participants
there were 4 classes which were sang the same song as us
one of the class was sang the almost same as us
we were totally angry for it
COPY CAT

finally until our turn!!!
NERVOUS!!!
but we still wanted to keep our mind fresh and calm
the more nervous the more mistakes would do
I took a deep breath so that I would never too nervous

steppped  up to the stage
we started our performance
everything went fluently
just my thinking
performance ended

the competition finally ended
as we finished our performance
our leader told us that there were many mistakes during the performance
after we heard that
we knew that the champion was very far from us

while waiting the result
we were totally upset
moody
worried
sad

finally the result came out
we just kept clapping for other winners
no matter any prizes
best tacit prize
best action prize
and the consolation prizes too
because we were not in the announcement

prize came to 2nd runner-up
was belong to 6A Ren
1st runner-up
went to 6A Xin
haiz~
all the prizes were belong to the science class
we totally hopeless
and we didn't expect for the champion

our mood just like alike with mountain
when performing
we were at the mountain peak
as finished the performance
it went down to the bottom of the hill
after the MC announced the prizes
our mood went most down
until the most bottom of the mountain
the bottom of valley
it found so hard to climb up

at last
the most nervous time came
as the MC announced
we were also no mood to concern about the winner
as we were all ready to clap our hands for the champion
as the MC announced:
"the champion of the English inter-class choir competition 2012 goes to....."
"6..."
until here
we were still not concern about
ready to clap hands
"ART...."
huh???
what???
O.o
art class??
not science class??
originally downcast
then started getting to rise our head
started to concern about
because there was only 2 art classes in the final round
"XIN!!!!" 

WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL OF US WERE JUMP UP HIGHLY
CHEERED AND SHOUTED
WE DID IT!!!!
CHAMPION WAS BELONG TO US!!!!

ALL OF US WERE TOTALLY HAPPY
BESIDES HAPPY
WE WERE SURPRISED AND SHOCKED AND UNBELIEVABLE TOO
as our leader said that we had many mistakes
and did it not well
WHY STILL COULD US BE THE CHAMPION?????
there were many question marks in our mind
but
also have some of  teachers said that we did it very well
once the result was announced
we stun for a second
and suspected that did the judges gave the wrong decision
or those teachers had counted the marks wrongly???
until now also couldn't believe it and didn't know why
although re-watched the video
still couldn't understand

but
the fact was
WE WERE THE CHAMPION
hahahahahahahahaha
we were still very excited until now
couldn't cool down our mood
kept exciting~
remembered that day
when we cheered and shouted for our champion
almost of the girls were crying
including me
finally I know the feeling of a winner
everytime when I watch some singing competition
I can't understand why the winner will cry
now I get it
really will cry if you never expect you are the winner at all

as the rewards of the champion
we got RM2000 for our class trip
hahahahaaha
planning planning~

SPECIALLY THANKS TO
GOH KAH MUN
who lead us in the choir
YONG YUEYANN
who plays the piano and guide us in the choir
WONG CHIAU EN
who plays saxophone in choir 

AND

MY BELOVED CLASSMATES
thanks you all  guys who gave me the greatest memory in my last senior school life



THANKS
MY CLASS
 6AXIN

LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH 


CHEER FOR THE CHAMPION




smile =)


yeah~!!!


happy until couldn't express our emotion



hahahahahaha


wahahahahahaha

2012/05/19

受不了

该来的还是会来
该面对的还是要面对
纸包不住火
这一天终于到了

用自己的储蓄买了的新电话
差不多一个月后的今天
妈妈终于发现到了
也不知怎样发现的
隐隐约约好像听到爸爸问
她好像说:“我查她的抽屉的咯”
OMG O.o
我听到这句话后马上火滚

我生平最~~最讨厌的就是别人去翻我的东西
在没有经过我的允许之下
感觉上我的隐私权完全被侵犯了
超没有安全感

 这已经不是第一次了
翻看我的电话信息
我也已经受够了
这次又来
真是令人火大
就算自己的父母也一样
父母就可以不必尊重儿女的隐私了吗

有什么话就直接告诉我啦
为什么要向爸爸发牢骚
还要放话给我听
我知道你是懂我听到的
所以才故意说的那么大声吧
表面上看是什么事情也没有发生
但背后在酸我
知道我有多难过伤心吗
我宁愿你直接坦白、坦诚地
母女俩互相地商量

我真的越来越不知道要如何和你相处了
感觉我们之间隔着的一堵墙
更加厚了
有时候我真的不知道你在想什么诶
很久之前明明你说自己想要的东西
自己存钱买
现在我办到了
存到钱了
买了自己想要的东西
你又说不行
是怎样啦
我搞不懂
可以告诉我吗

有好多好多次
其实我都很想离开这个家
好好的冷静思考
去反省
到底要如何拉近我们的距离
让彼此没有代沟
但离开了家
我不知何去哪里
也有过自我了断的想法
什么都不去想
但 我知道这是一个很自私、很愚蠢的事情
比起离家出走
我还是选择前者
或许离开是能解决问题
就像daphne倩纹一样
看了她的访问
让我觉得离家好像是对的

我真的很辛苦
为什么你都一直认为我是不行的
觉得我不可能到台湾读书
到韩国旅游
觉得这些达成的机率是零
我是你的女儿耶
 有点失望和灰心
讲真的

算了
我也不想讲了
怕再讲下去
我的负面思想会更加强烈

THINK POSITIVE
危机就是转机

晚安 :')

2012/04/12

Baby

今天听了佩珊大概告诉我生小孩的过程
我真的听傻了眼
真的很佩服那些妈咪们
真伟大!!!

昨天看了《孩子不坏》这部电影
里面有说到一个老师的老婆生小孩
哇 O.o 很痛!!!
差不多在座的每一位
都直呼:痛死了 >_<
我以为不是真的
就有一幕我真的是不敢相信
(看过这部电影的都知道我在讲什么啦)
直到今天佩珊告诉了我
我才勉强得相信
现在才真正的了解
原来生小孩的过程是这样的
以前我是知道生小孩很辛苦、很痛
但不知道会痛得那么入心入肺
难以想象那些妈咪们是如何把小孩生下
我只是听而已
都已经让我想作呕 有点飙冷汗
更何况是在那种情况下
我一直在想
我以后可以不要生小孩吗
去领养回来算了
可是自己亲生的孩子会比较珍贵和疼惜
唉~痛苦叻~

母亲真伟大~

可是我觉得老天不公平叻
为什么我们女生总是要承受不同的痛
而男生就不需要
为什么叻???



2012/03/26

Education Fair

Yesterday went to Mid Valley education fair with my cousin & her friends
but I also need go alone by lrt & ktm
they came to kl by ktm at 8.30am

early in the morning,7.30am
I woke up already @.@
too early jor =P
but also ok la...
because I need sometime to prepare also

after preparing & having some simple breakfast
start take lrt & ktm go to Mid Valley
until I reach the Mid Valley ktm station
the crowd O.o
totally sucks~
huh~ and the weather damn hot

after spent some time to find my cousin them
my leg started felt pain
wearing high heels shoes
finally find them
really hard to find ppl in the fair
 easily missed

after education fair
we took monorail to time square shopping
we having sakae sushi too
after shopping at there
we walk to pavilion to buy sticky

we almost spent the whole day walking here and there
the leg damn tired and pain
especially me
wearing the high heels the whole day
OMG...unbelievable I could do it
very regret to wear it :(
but really awesome and happy this day
know more friends and some are handsome too xP
hahahahahaha~

almost 7pm like that
we finally went home
they went back to seremban
I went back home
有点不舍得啦~

hope that next time we got chance to hang out again =)
and nice to meet you all
although got 2 are met before =P
see you next time :D

2012/03/13

Awesome Day with 6A Xin =)

12/3/12
A memorable & awesome day with dear 6A Xin
having SKYTREX at Shah Alam
hehe =)

we gathered at skul at 7pm
the bus 8am only arrived
spoiler.. XDD
after about one hour journey
finally we reached there..
yeepeee...X)

after understanding the rules
we started climbing trees up there to start our game
wahh...really not a joke leh
just started climbing the tree
already used finish half energy
TIRED
and the main thing is the arm is more pain than leg
but really enjoyed in the game

the game i most enjoyed is flying fox
really fun
just swang over across the tree
but when i playing the second flying fox
when wanna reached the end
suddenly stucked!!couldnt swing over and keep backforward-ing!! O.o
at last the guide person came over and help me swing over =P
huh...

the game on the more back
the more difficult
got a moment i really wanna to give up
but at last I finished the game
BRAVO!!!hehe
salute to myself XP
although i am the second last to finish the journey
my classmate also said to me that
he saw me very hard to play the game
but i still finished the game
hehe

while I playing the game
I took so long time to finish it
 so scared & nervous >_<
sweating all the body
and keep saying out korean language
hehe

after finished the game
is almost 2pm
everyone was sooooo tired & hungry
everyone also wanted to find smt to fill their stomach
but restaurants were close
so we just went back
and ate byself

so i and some friends decided go to sing k & eat
but because of the time
some were just eat
include me
we took monorail go to bukit bintang
when we reached there we took a decide to eat zanmai sushi
at fahrenheit complex
we met shook wai at there =D
after tooking order and the food reached
everyone just ate their food
so fast finished my food because was really hungry
after finished my food
i went back home by monorail & lrt

when i reach home
i straight away lie on my bed
huh...tired ahhhhhh
and my two arms T^T
right arm was better
but left arm was worst
no more energy to lift up my left arm
PAIN PAIN PAIN 

REALLY HAVE A NICE DAY TRIP WITH YOU ALL GUYS
=)
LETS HANG OUT AGAIN ON JUNE HOLIDAY :)







peace ^^V
 

2012/02/08

Happy Birthday to Me

080212
today is my 18th's birthday
without any special celebration
just have a piece of lovely cheese cake from 6A Xin'12
birthday songs
birthday greetings...
that's all
no present also =(
sad case~
but I already be this as habit...


last saturday had celebrated earlier birthday with my dear family
Thanks a lot
especially birthday gift from dear cousin
and surprise kiss 
haha~shy shy la XDD





2012/01/27

CNY :)

here comes to cny day 5
sienzzz...
just back to kl last night with family
we went to tokyo street at pavilion


thn walk around thr..
 keep photographing =)

buy sticky at thr
buy by myself lar...hehe
coz everytime thinking of "sticky"
is a boy buy for a girl
a famous couple present...



mix flavor



we also take photo with the countries bears


my lovely korea

during cny also keep eating and drinking
ntg else can do
and angpao xD
this year I eat less jor
coz want watch out my weight
haha XD

like dat lur..
every year also same same d..
visiting frens and relatives hse
temple...
wat else??
haiz~
but new year ma..
can gather with dear families
happy happy xia lar..
awaiting nxt saturday..heheXD
my uncle's hse open hse
wanna balik kampung again..=)
thn monday and tuesday?
holidayyyy!!!
hoorayyyyy!!!!

2012/01/07

DAMN MISS 5A REN'11

Miss 5A Ren soooo much =(
miss everything about 5a ren
everyone miss too 

not just only me
every 5a ren's miss too
right??
hehe...
everyday sure got any guy say that miss 5a ren
is real...

when I am having lesson
damn boring =.=
keep thinking of memories of 5a ren
everytime I will also go to find u all when I am free

we really miss each other
just school opened about 4 days
don't know say jor how many times "miss 5a ren"
lol XD
keep planning go here and go there
thinking event during cny
wanna hang out and shuffle together again xD
just planning we also can discuss till very high
hahahaha..XDD

5A REN
MISS U GUYS SOOOO MUCH
EVERYONE AND TEACHERS ALSO
I WILL KEEP OUR MEMORIES IN MY MIND :)


 keep in touch ya =D

2012/01/01

CLASS TRIP WITH DEAR 5A REN'11♥

27/12-30/12
can't wait these four days
class trip with dear 5a ren
going to eagle ranch resort

having a quiet long time din see them from spm end day
miss them so much
can't wait to see them

1st day

meet at school at 1pm
everyone is so excited xD
someone luggage is so big
haha X)
after gather and people are all reach
we take bus and start our journey =)

we reach there about 3pm 
put on our luggage,take a rest
then go kart at 4pm :D
everyone are so high
and someone is so scared
include me >.<

finally my turn to play
play with scared and excited mood
keep brake when take turn
got some people straightly bang to the tyre xD 
so pity and funnny~
hahahaha...

after go kart and before dinner
no event for us =.=
lol
damn boring
keep chatting and playing cards

7.30pm dinner
walao~
the food really "delicious"
the curry is sooooo spicy
until tears coming out T^T
so bad...

after dinner
nothing do again...
haiz~
playing cards and blowing water lo

 2nd day
7.30am eat breakfast
so early -_-
9am telematch games
total have 6 games...
divide into 4 groups
each group have their own marks
my group has the least marks
so sorry for them
i think is my fault to let them take less marks
and one thing makes me so sorry to kuek
got a game is need to blow the flour to take sweet
everyone's face are full of flour
include me also
take water to wash those flour
suddenly someone ask me give him some water
i don't know who is that
shout at him say i need the water and get away from me
then i turn around to look who is that
O_O
I totally shock
is kuek
sooooo sorry to him
really guilt to him
sorry kuek =P
我不是有意的
after lunch
treasure hunt at 3pm
damn tired
keep walk and walk
finally night walk after dinner
quite excited XD
walk into the jungle
damn dark @@
can't see anything at all
very slippery~
need our team work
after about one hour
finally get out from jungle
damn tired and sweat everywhere
leg damn pain @@
a tired day~

3rd day

after breakfast
paintball
everyone is so awaiting and exciting
but after playing
everyone think not good
my jacket kena the paint
and my hand also
so yucks~
after lunch
having basketball and volleyball match with other people
but some people go swimming after basketball match
me also
just play water in the swimming pool
because i don't know how to swim >_<
after swimming
having our last dinner-barbeque dinner
we also have karaoke
keep enjoying our last night at resort
everyday I'm suffering xD
this night seem like everyone so不舍得
so late only sleep but except me
me so early to sleep jor
but i heard that some boys are drunk after drinking beer
so high~

4th day

after having breakfast
packing our luggage
check out at 10pm
waiting travel bus coming
damn late
waiting for 2 hours only reach
everyone is tired
just a few minutes
everyone sleep

4 days 3 nights trip end
really have fun with them
although have not so good
but really fun :D
hope suffle again next time

HAPPY NEW YEAR 5A REN'S

happy new year everyone
hope have a great year =D

drank 3 glass of red wine just now @@
like wanna drunk
so good night world
gonna sleep now
nitezzz =)

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